So today was the first time I set foot on
kanchanaburi's town. And it was scorching hot, then it rained.
Then its back to sweating like a pig.
Apart from the difficulty tryna find a money changer cos
Nobody, nobody can speak english, it was a good out of camp feeling.

By right, I should be booking out after 5 days but I have to
keep reminding myself, if I do book out, there isnt home that I
could go home too, and that fact hurts me alot.
I just cant wait for home leave. hehe.

I think I can be okay cos I keep suppressing my feelings,
but gosh, my hips, no, my heart wont lie.
People, its so hard. can I say that again? People, Its so hard!

Listen, if u have plans on leaving home for more than 3 months,
Think very very very hard. If you're like me,
very much attached to my family, friends, and basically life in Singapore,
Dont. Cos its gonna be hard.

I really miss just going back home and hear my mom
nagging about my room being messy.
I miss the laughter and joy I share with my gila friends.
I miss lepaking in my crib till wee hours, just doing nothing
but feel relax and happy.
I miss going out late at nite cruising around and spent aimless times.
I miss chatting with my sister on her crib and laugh till late nite
and have mom nagging again.
I miss karaoke-ing with the usuals.
I miss clubbing with my clubbers.
I miss my clothes.
I miss hearing my dad's pet birds chirping in the morning.
On top of all that, I miss having a life.

The one that I left because of no particular reason.
I said once, I need time to forgive myself.

See, I was never a problematic kid until now.