I just realise when my mom mention just
now over the phone that it feels that I've
been gone for too long, fact is, its only four days.
And I confidently told everybody its my fifth day yesterday.

Im really nervous about tomorrow, I have to participate
In the UFP, which i still dunno whut it stands for.
But basically is to train for your IPPT.
And the one in charge is, I shall call him a monster.

He screams at everybody for anything that he could think of.
I havent get my share yet of those deafening vulgarities but
Im just waiting for time. People have warned me that he likes to pick
on newbies. Damn. I already feel bad enuff coming here and now,
him. Walao.

You know whut, im not, never gonna let him affect me.
I just wanna be happy, can?

A friend once ask me, how do u not get caught in SAF.
I replied, Just stay low. low profile.
And he differed by saying, So they ask you to eat shit, u eat shit?

Its not that dumbo, U follow, no matter how your heart aches,
U follow those regimental shit. Cos afterall not everyone in SAF
is young and is low ranked, So we just have to like the army would say,
Suck thumb. Means, live with it.
Just so you wont be so outstanding that the superiors know you
so well so as to pick on you always.

People are dying to be popular in high sch,
In the SAF, I bet they all wanna be invisible.
trust me.

And I guess I have to learn sucking my thumb like a baby,
All over again.