At last,I get a chance to say hello
to you earthlings that i miss very much.

If u read the past few entries, I mention about leaving
for Thailand for a year. As you guessed, yes I am here.
Kanchanaburi, Thailand.
And this place, Sai Yok camp would be my home for the next
dozen of months. (haha)

Let this enrty be the few ones that Im gonna strip my feelings bare.
I have to be honest, Im at the lowest point of my life now.
Yes thinking about it, its not as bad as i think it is, but truth is,
I've never left my family for more than 2 weeks? That is also cause of SAF.
Confinement during BMT, remember? (haha)

I am emotional, and i'll stay this way until I find peace here.
Peace with myself. And forgive myself for letting me, go through this
phase for no necassary reason.
Home, its definitely better than any place in the whole wide world.
First nite here was the worst to get by.
New bed, new place, new bunkmate, new country.
That is a whole different level already.

I didnt get to purchase a local sim card here on my first day so I couldnt
call anybody. There was no one I could talk to, nothing to hold on to.
I was at the verge of just going AWOL, I swear.

Today is just my third day, things are going okay.
Made friends, adapt a lil with the routine.
And im just hoping for better days,
Pray with me, will you?