My wish for my 21st birthday was for everybody
to be happy. Everyone else ahead of me.
I know it sounds corny and all but that was sincerely
what I wished for cos I've seen enough tears from someone
else's eyes.

2010 so far, has been an emotional year,
And probably things would still stay the same throughout.
I foresee 2010 to be a year that I would grow so much
out of my childhood.

The only reason why I wrote down my wish here, you know the cliche
of if you tell your wish, then it wont come thru?
I figured probably it will not come thru anyways.

It's gonna be a huge step for me when I leave for Thailand soon.
Yes, Im leaving for Thailand for a year.
I really wanted my mom to be as happy as she can be, be a good son,
an obedient one this year and for years to come.
But as for now I guess, I'll have to live with the guilt
of making her cry, because me, her lil boy wont be by her side
laughing and cracking jokes with her anymore.


Im sorry mom, I wont be here when u need me.
Im sorry I wont be here when u're sick.
Im sorry I wont be here for your birthday,
Im sorry for making you cry.
and Im gonna miss you, like never before.


Life always takes you to heights you never imagine.
Like a rollercoaster, the seconds ticking while u're
climbing up the track, adrenalin makes you think so much
about how ur fall is gonna be.

Last May, I took my chances in something I wanna pursue
that failed, I tried and I cried.

This May, again, Im taking my chances in something, that
would be the last thing on my mind, Leaving.
For now, all i could do is try.

For I've already cried too many times even before it happens.